Realizations

Today I came to a sinking realization.
As I get my tests passed back to me at Valencia, I can't help but look at them and wonder, what happened?
So used to being a prodigious A student, for once in my life, I am facing the dilemma of pouring hours of hard work and study into my schoolwork - with nothing to show for it.
It's slowly dawning on me just how difficult this undertaking of choosing to major in Biology is - and I'm in for a long few years. I started thinking, "maybe I'm not smart enough? maybe I'm not cut out for this?"
But honestly, I can't think of anything else I would rather do. I am having a hard time and I am struggling in school, as well as facing the added pressure of it being my senior year, having to keep my GPA up for scholarships and honor societies. But if I don't do it now, what am I going to do? Just give up? I can't.

Things are getting hard, but I just need too find a way to push through and get on with it.

My Day

12:33 am.

Spent the past hours studying for trig, hoping the hard work will pay off Thurs.

My Day:

I like vanilla coffee from gas stations.
I do not like paying for gas.
I do not like it when the Dakota decides to drive funny.
I do like Biology.
I do like feeling like I know what I'm doing on BIO tests and quizzes.
I do not like getting bad scores on chemistry tests.
I like nice classmates.
I do not like upcoming trig tests.
I do love Joshua David Kuckuck.
I like having a drivers license.
I like listening to loud music in the car.
I like clean rooms.
I like sleep after a long day.